have i been making mistaked too long. part 2

[tkdmme]

Not feeling as good today as yesterday. I locked my keys in my car last night and had to call W for help. That sucked. We didn't fight but I hated to ask her for anything. I feel that I failed the program. I guess ill just get back up and try again.

The kids go back to school in the morning. tonight should be interesting. We will have to work together to get the kids ready and in bed on time.

Im so sick of this. Not knowing whats going to happen is killing me. Some days I feel that everything will work out in time and other days I feel hopeless and want to cry. I cant cry anymore. I have never been an emotional person and it makes me feel weak to cry. I hate myself every time I do it.

I usually cry in mornings while im taking a shower. That way I know that no one will hear me. It feels good to let it out but it feels terrible to know that I cant control my emotions.

God help me get through this.