Too angry right now

[ohgosh]

And lastly, I feel fortunate that she expressed insight into the fact she is acting out of deep anger blinding her, she expressed it in this way in her messages:
I know I just want to hurt you for "what you did to me", and that its not right, and thats not who I want to be.

I am fortunate that she is able to see beyond her fog at times, but the biggest hurt from this last conversation was the conviction she seemed to express her desire to not be with me, there was no hesitation at all in her words, though her actions said otherwise.

I don't know what will happen after this week - will she contact me? will she want to see me? I'm going to try hard and not initiate anything.