Thanks Zelda, at this point I dont think I want to reconcile.
Things I've done since she left thursday night. 1. protected my assets leaving some money in joint account 2. told her she had to pay back any money used for her trip 3. Shutting off her cell phone 4. put her stuff in a corner of the room 5. contacted lawyers but have received 0 callbacks...a little frustrated there
Right now she came back but can barely meet my eyes. I'm trying not to be completely hostile but it is VERY hard. All I think when I see her is BETRAYER!!! She is supposed to be moving out this week. I talked to each of the stepkids and our son to let them know that I do not want them to leave and wish they could stay. I've also been talking to the DB coach today and she gave me some things to try to focus on in the short term. At this point I dont really care if going dark will make her harder or not, I'm done being her friend. She threw that away when she left Thursday night. All weekend long she was texting the kids how much she missed them, WHAT A CROCK OF [censored]! I had to bite my tongue so hard not to say "no she doesn't she chose going to see her boyfriend over you" I know that would be wrong so I shut my mouth. but I wanted to scream it out with her freaking hypocrisy!!!
I'm probably just deep in shock but I did mourn some thursday morning when she first told me she was leaving. I haven't mourned since. Since then it's been rage mixed with disgust.
Thanks again to Zelda, Sandi and all the others that have given some advice. It has helped A LOT I think it's only becaus of you guys I haven't let me emotions run off with me.
