Letting go, really hurts (Smothy 9)

[asitis]

Logged on the computer this morning to print off e tickets etc. saw gmail to OW2 I f***ing love you xxxx! Wow how that hurt seeing that.

When will it stop hurting discovery more 'truths' from the lies H has told me. Ie only sex, friends. Keeping believe nothing and half of what they say at the back of my mind doesn't soothe anything.

Maybe it won't ever stop. We'll think it will stop, and then they'll go and prove us wrong. It will diminish. There is a commonly spoken saying that it takes as long to get over an R as you were in it. Not backed up by any studies I know of, but just from anecdotal evidence, I'd say there is some truth to it. Of course, there are people who never drop the rope, and those who work through this and face the actual pain and emotions of the sitch. The latter do get better faster than those who just run and distract themselves to avoid dealing w/ the pain. You clearly fall in the stand, face, and deal w/ it category.

Definitely a punch in the gut. Sorry for you & hope this particular hurt dissipates quickly.

Good travels.