Too angry right now

[ohgosh]

And lastly, once we stop building this flat together at the end of this week, we will have some much needed space to digest. I'll maintain my LRT of not initiating contact, and working on myself.

I truly hope that by this she will digest some things on her own and be drawn back to me, however I am not very confident at this stage as it seems her made is very made up but her heart is in pain about it.

Part of me also thinks that I may be happier with someone else who understands me better and is not so emotionally reactive, a lot of the times I feel like I am her dad in many ways, a very co-dependent relationship.