I want my wonderful insightful brave Z to know, that which she is feeling is absolutely typical and on cue. In addition I decided to be absolutely open about this, it isn't helping anyone if this is seen as easy or smooth as if there is one easy magic answer to healing. Others read these posts are lurking sometimes, and to make the journey look easy or smooth would be truly inauthentic and create expectations that can't be met.
It's raw and it's real. The nightmares are tanggible and also part of healing, if I remember them I will describe. Each sitch is different but the abuse trauma is damaging, and the separation from self is fractured and hurtful. Like pendulum effect it varies daily.
It makes us fragile and human with our frailties and strengths. Today was a better day even though the sun shone only briefly.
Today I coped much better, you can expect some days like these but tomorrow is tomorrow.
Thank you for the support, I have ordered the book you mentioned. Z, I am not intending to hijack and I want to share that everything that you feel and think is valid for you. The pain is real and the cut deep, but it's ok, your spirit is helping you grow and learn. Let each day come as it will, just one day at a time.
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Last edited by Vanilla; 08/10/1506:48 PM.
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW
