Letting go, really hurts (Smothy 9)

[Pyrite]

Smothy, you might not get that darling. I'm sorry. Firstly, there is a good chance he doesn't even know. If he does come p with something it will almost certainly be so jaded by this "fog" that he is in that it isn't worth listening too. 3rdly, you might never get it. You might never get a reason, let alone a good reason. You might never hear heartfelt sorry for anything more than "getting caught" so to speak. He will likely never be remorseful and regret it. its [censored], it hurts, and it aint going to go away for a long time.

All of that said, the fact that you saw "i love you" email, and H was lying, is really no surprise. Again, sorry, it [censored]. That is who he is right now. I wanted to believe early on that my W would be different. I knew her after all. Those other people I read about, my W could not be like that. But she has actually proved herself to be worse!! It's her right to [censored] whoever she likes in our house when I'm not there. It's her right to introduce whoever she wants to our kids etc.

It just makes your head spin that 1. people can do this ib the first place. 2. they can look you in the eye and outright lie 3. why? who, what and why are you lying to protect.it just doesn't make any sense, on any level,, from any perspective.