It's OK to feel like this. Hey, I'm five months in and still get days when I just wish my W would pull back, but she seems further away. It's all about preparing yourself and being ready, either way.
You can't control your W. You have to let her go off, do what she's doing and not get over anxious about it. My biggest mistake was seeing anger in my W, whilst following the rules, and interpreting that as failiure. What a dummy! When they start getting angry, they are actually starting to get mixed up because they aren't controlling the situation any more. Keep going.
M 45 W 52 SD22 S9 D8 BD 6 April 2015 Not living together 4 Dec 2015