HI Painter. That is me I do not ask for what I need I try to handle everything myself and then resent him because I have to do it all. Example I say I will watch the kids whenever so they are not in the middle yet I get mad when he does not spend time with them even though he would take them with him Its me not wanting them in the situation. Or like tonight he said he was going tubing not hanging out so I was upset he did not let me know technically we are no longer together as he is saying he is official with OW so its really none of my business plus just makes me more upset anyways! I will CHOOSE to start journaling my feelings and finding other distractions. I will also be making a DR appointment to see about something for anxiety just to help me get through some of the tough stuff. I choose to keep working on me. It has taken me a long time to realize the actual truth not just say the words I can only control me I can not save this R by myself i can not control H I can not control anyone but ME! I choose to learn to control my emotions and keep reading!
