I believe that our core values and beliefs gives us the impetus to try to salvage our M. I agree, Py that WAS core beliefs and values leads to behaviour and feelings which are justifiable to them.

I can't sleep ATM its 3.12am here. Tearful. My sitch is making my imminent move filled with more anxiety than it should. I see this as a new chapter but one I am not ready for yet. Questions in my head.

What point is no return? How much more of the lies/ emotional rollercoaster can we take? At the point of no return, I don't believe I become the WAS but a person who has done what they could to save my M. I know that when my time comes to walk away it will be a painful thing to do.

I am not It sure of the guilt though. Should we be guilty of trying as hard as we could? Lessening our own pain and truly moving on? Giving up on hope? Our M that only LBS hold dear?

Both 47 M 20 T25 S 18
EA July 11- Jan 12. ILYBNILWY Oct EA April 13 -July 13
Move to work abroad Sept 14
re establish contact with OW while away
D bomb 22/12/14 D filed papers served 17/03/15