V is for Vanilla 20

[Vanilla]

Today was a very difficult day, for no reason but it was. The little I did took great energy. I did not feel like going out.

Days like to day I feel lost, tired and aged. Without energy. I do very little.

I wa once a vibrant woman, alive active slim and interesting. On days like today I feel like a shell. It's trauma I know so.

The Fins are getting me down, I am deeper and deeper in debt, drowning sometimes. Living on credit cards and really struggling with small things.

I know if WH had stayed around much longer I would be completely destroyed vindicating his views.

I can't sleep tonight. Perhaps it's because I am cleansing that this is emerging. I wrote my will today and I also sorted my Brighton flat. Some guests had stayed and left the freezer door open, it was full of ice and every item of food in it had to be discarded. More cost I can do without!

I discovered my replacement TV doesn't have Plex on it so much of my equipment won't work. I dug out an old Chromecast to see if that would resolve my issue and researched some hacks for the Samsung TVs. Haven't had a chance to test any of it. Only 4 hours before work and travel.

It will get better, I believe it. It will take time.

So much to do.

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