Well I am feeling really anxious tonight. H went tubing with OW around noon its now 8pm not home and I have to work at 10pm. He does not know that I need to work I will message him around 9 and let him know he needs to be home by 930 as to not sound pursuing. I am CHOOSING to not be upset about it to look at the feelings and realize they are anxiety and not anger. I know my anxiety usually turns to anger so I am aware that I need to control that when I see him. I am CHOOSING not to lecture him about being gone all week and not seeing his kids that is HIS problem. I am CHOOSING to control me! I have been with them all week so I am not losing out. It is only one day but I have not pursued simply asked what time he was planning to get home and when he did not answer I CHOOSE not to send multiple texts. I called to let him know I had to work he did not answer called back while I was sleeping I called back no answer so I will text half hour before I need to leave. No need to bother him or pursue or control. Its one day but Its a very very small step. Very powering making a different choice!
