You may not think you aren't a model, but you are doing really, really well. No one said it meant you wouldn't still be confused, in pain, or having to move forward at times through sheer force of will. If you look at all the people who you think are doing well and that you look to for inspiration, please let me know if you see any of them that aren't struggling at least inside at times.
What makes people inspirational is that we see that they are human and struggle just like we do, and yet they get it done. We can relate to it and it can inspire us because we can see that the other person is doing it despite the difficulty and struggles we see in ourselves.
So, take some satisfaction that your work is helping others too. And, it looks like you are helping your M and your family. No guarantees, but it is great work.
Me: 50 W:43 S6, S3 M: 12 yrs. T: 17 M is bad & Not happy Bomb Mar '14 S 5 Feb '15 D Bomb 13 Apr '15 (but "no hurry") DB Coach May '15 Wants proceed on D Aug '15 Starting 1-on-1 negotiations Sept '15