Need advice for a WW who left Part 2

[dwh15]

Journaling:
Volunteered at my church this morning. Part of the greeting staff which meets people at the door. It's a large congregation, over 1,200 between two Sunday services and I always feel good putting on a smile and shaking hands as people show up. Got to talking with one of the other volunteers, an man in his 60's, who had been through a D years earlier. Married to his 1st W for 24 years with 3 kids, and suddenly some sort of MLC and she decided she had to "find" herself. I swear, as I ask around, I am amazed at how common this situation is with women in their late 30s and early 40s suddenly going nuts and bailing out on long term marriages.

So it was nice talking to someone who had been through it. He did give me a little hope, in that he had a friend who went through something similar a few years ago, got D, and after 2 years apart, they R and got married again. It's good to hear a success story once in a while, although I realize the odds are against it. I'm still struggling with emotions, still think about my W constantly, but am doing my best to keep busy around the house and plan fun things with the kids. I'm 5 months out but starting to think it's going to be a full year at least before I even start to feel somewhat "normal" about my sitch.