I dont know you so this may sound a bit hollow, but I'm proud of you. You are dealing with this very well. I can tell from your responses that you have a kind heart and pure motivation.
It is always hardest when you are tired etc. Go easy on yourself. Remember, you WILL feel like [censored], you will get angry and hate him and do all of the things you promised yourself you won't. But this is bigger than both of us. This is bigger than human kind and we are ALL victim to this grief. We are privileged in this respect. We have the luxury of grief.
I admire your forthrightness about your OCD habits. You are 1/2 way to being cured. Not that I expect there is a cure.
They are aliens. Totally. I was beside myself for months grappling with this. I thought I knew my W and now she is just a different person, a stranger, an alien. I don't know what else I can say but you are spot on here.
Persevere. PMA. Things will change. It is oh so cliche and your eyes will skim over this as you have heard it a thousand times before - but really, Little, Your life is yours. YOU are in control. YOU are in control of what you think now, and next. YOU choose where you want to be. Externals are just that. External. YOU can interpret them however you like. The traffic light turns red - one person curses, another is thankful to stretch. PMA. (i'm not good at it BTW. Good at telling other people though )
Take care Little, Py
M: 6 T: 12 Kids: 2,4 BD: Jan 2015 S: Feb 2015 EA/PA confirmed: Feb2015/Mar2015
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