I dont think those are the reasons to be honest. I think it was just something he pulled off the top of his head to justify himself.
My OCD manifests itself in different ways. 1. I have to do everything in a specific order. If I do not then I get frustrated and will have to start all over. Even simple tasks like washing dishes. 2. I grab ahold of something and do not let go. I will repeatedly ask the same question over and over and over even if the answer never changes.
I understand, after reading many threads on here, that my R is gone. I want to be in a position to be open to R. In reading some of the things I have written about him, its not him. I mean he was NEVER this way. It is literally like an alien has taken over his body and mind.
Yesterday I did well for most of the day. Then I was so overtired that the thoughts came flooding in. I was able to stop myself and focus. So that is a big yay for me.
Me 44 H 46 3 DD 22, 18, 15 1 DS 2.5 M 10/1992 BD1 2/2014 BD 2 7/19/2014 Moved in with OW 7/20/2014
