Thanks guys. Today was horrible. Horrible. I feel like I'm going to just break down and lose it any minute. No contact from the W. She didn't say anything about receiving the note. I wasn't expecting it to make her turn around and you guys prepared me for not hearing anything about it, it still kills me though. Went out to dinner with some buddies and didn't enjoy myself for a second. Just kept thinking about this and what I've done to get things here. Begley, you're right. Things have just kept swirling and swirling around my head and it builds and gets worse. I keep thinking about how things are going to be when I get home, how disconnected this woman I love is going to be and how terrible everything is going to be. I've been trying so hard to be positive but it's just getting harder and harder. For the first time since this all started i feel truly hopeless.
