PP... it's been hard the past month with my new job keeping up with everyone's sitches. But I read through all of this and yeah, congratulations to you on everything! What kind of business are you running, by the way? Nothing like being passionately creative about your work to keep all these things in perspective. I wish the business that I started two years ago had gained traction. Part of why I've wished this is because its lack of success is part of my WW's argument as to why she left me.
But then I think: who wants to be with someone who will leave you for your lack of success instead of supporting you through it? No one... and really, that's not who she was. It's who she is right now, though. The monster.
Still, it's also easy to see where we both were "phoning it in" at times in our M, a certain lack of consciousness about our M like you say you had in yours. My friend says that when we get married, we are on the "80 year plan." Although I've thrown all expectations out the window, I also have resolved to proceed with hope - hope that this is a small bucket of pain in a very long marathon, and one that, should we reconcile, will have been the catalyst for a whole new and fully conscious relationship. I'm not quite where you are yet, but I'm starting to see how things are going to be better either way for me, just like they will for you... with her or without her. That being said... we DB because we hold onto hope that "with her" is where things will end up.
Thanks for being such an inspiration. Big hugs to you.
Dif
Me: 46 Her: 41 M: 5.5 yrs / S: 20, 18 3/26 W and I meet OW BD: 5/2/2015, she takes off ring W goes to stay with OW 6/26 NC: 9/5 Both moved out: 10/16 I take off my ring and feel... healed: 10/19
