Just a quick update to let you all know I am LOVING detachment. It took me a long time to get here but this is such a relief. And GAL too, I am having so much fun. More fun than before BD. I have friends and interests and plans and this is real, no longer "faking it" or using it as an escape from my problems, it has become real. I also completely stopped pursuing. I needed the detachment for that to work, detachment is my new best friend. Better than anti-anxiety meds. Better than wine. I am seeing things so much more clearly and I am feeling stronger and happy. I had a relapse the other day and it was so obvious to me how far I've come, and that I need to stay off that rollercoaster.
And, as a side note, really not even the point, but H is initiating conversations with me. And I say that is a side note because even a month ago that would have made me so ecstatic, now I am just curious and mildly hopeful that it is a good sign.
