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[PigPen]

I am very verbally and emotionally abusive when I get mad.

At this point I have no control over anything and it is very very scary to me.

I need to get my butt in gear and save myself because I can only handle so much. Im sick of this cycle just not sure how to break it!

You do have control over one thing 4mykid. You have control over you. Sounds like you've got a lot you can work on. Emotions are one thing, actions are another. It's ok to get mad, it's not ok to get emotionally and verbally abusive.

Do you have an IC? Do you have a meditation practice? Do you journal your thoughts and feelings onto paper? Do you workout?

There is much you can do, but until you get a hold of yourself and truly gain control of your actions, your family will not be whole. It sounds like you've got time to work some things out with yourself, some big ticket items.

Control those.

PP