Dys, my WH is a compulsive gambler, alcoholic, heavy smoker, chaser of women, and compulsive spender.
So I know how it is to be with an addict, even one who pretends to recover, I help lead a Gamanon group too, I see a great deal.
So are you in a 12 step program? Is there a related program for loved ones run alongside?
WAW has a recovery road, to learn to detach from your demons, to repair herself. Her recovery is as important as yours. Whilst you are responsible for you and your recovery WAW is responsible for hers.
If you and your WAW get back together then you will want a healthy R, one capable of standing life's bumps. Being with a substance addict isn't easy and being with a recovering addict isn't either.
So I will ask my question, what are your recovery plans?
Are you in twelve steps? If not then your recovery is unlikely to be consistent, 12 steps is the way to the inner man, to lay down your burden and to accept (step 1) that your illness is out of your control it is a way to share. If you are then your burden will be lighter by giving your therapy, sharing your D. This means you do not stand alone, there is a second fellowship besides this one. Plus you will be able to invite WAW to see you Collect your pins in an open meeting.
Giving up your addictions will cause depression, your nutritional health will be depleted, are you smoking heavily? The cadmium in cigarettes will depress you too. This type of down is physiological, if you can get blood work done, find your vitamin B and D, iron and much more levels. If you have been staying in then your body can be depleted. Time for extraordinary care, sunshine, connection with nature and 12 step. 12 step programmes often have contact with extra resources and members can often help you will counselling. 12 steps itself is free group counselling!! Gentle exercise too, if you are depleted I recommend that you will need medical review before you exercise intensively.
And the tattoo, follow your plan.
Go face your challenge, it will be ok.
V
Last edited by Vanilla; 08/07/1509:23 PM.
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW
