I am doing a bit better... but not nearly 100% here, either. There was one day this week I broke down into tears over it all, just thinking about how immense my loss is. And the detachment isn't always there. A new restaurant with great reviews opened here in our neighborhood. My first thought is to ask if she wants to check it out. I wonder if she'll be here this weekend like she originally said, and I want to ask her to make us some Albanian pizza and enjoy it with wine on the porch... but honestly, is enjoying anything with her possible anymore? Could she make it through a whole slice of pizza without texting OW?
I'd like to test it and see for myself, see if I can be detached and get through a whole meal without an argument or debate. I'd like to see if I can leave her with a taste of what she misses about me. But I can't keep thinking about it, or her, or about days that are gone and we'll never get back.
(As for the kids... you know the OW has coached my W to see them as her "tenants," not her stepchildren. I'm also trying not to think too much of that woman, but man... she is doing her damnedest to bust up this family in every possible way...)
I appreciate your kind words, and wish that each day gets a little bit brighter for you.
Dif
Me: 46 Her: 41 M: 5.5 yrs / S: 20, 18 3/26 W and I meet OW BD: 5/2/2015, she takes off ring W goes to stay with OW 6/26 NC: 9/5 Both moved out: 10/16 I take off my ring and feel... healed: 10/19
