Im in the same shape so I know exactly what you are feeling. However, im not away from home. im so sorry for what is happening but from what im learning here, there is no easy solution. My wife and I are still in the same house for now and sometimes I think it would be easier if we were not.
I know what you mean about not being able to shake the bad thoughts. Ive been going through this hell for almost 6 months now I still cant seem to keep it together.
I will say that finding my way to this site has helped a great deal. Take care.
M:39 W:40 S:10 S:7 D:12 BD:3/5/15 Separate BR:3/5/15 W moved out with kids 1/3/16
