I am glad to know (but also not glad) that you feel the same way about it. I am just tired of getting judged.
I have realistically thought well, maybe this is how the rest of my life is going to be. Just me. Gulp. That's scary and sad but if it is meant to be then it is.
For me, I have started smiling a lot more at pretty much everyone, saying hello to everyone I meet, introduce myself, look people in the eyes, ask them how they are doing (job capacity) and ask them if I can assist (in my job capacity). I am trying so hard to have a PMA because I know it projects positivity and confidence and theoretically that projection will draw positive people to me.
But in the meantime, it is me, myself and I.
My W has radically overhauled herself, has her new apartment, new hairdo and color, new furniture, has a new life, new office and I am still in my "old" life. It feels like judgment from her too, "look at Heavy, she just can't let go". My values are the same, my integrity is the same, I know my kids like the comfort of home and their rooms and their stuff, but such a critical element is missing.
Is this the she has "grown" and I have not syndrome? I know feelings are just feelings and they aren't always the truth and we can control our feelings. I truly get all of that. But it still just hurts.
