It's been a hell of a week... I found a message in my "other" mail folder on FB. It was from the OM wife. She just barely found out about their affair in July. She was told by her husband that it was only an online emotional affair, but she later found proof that it had turned physical. She wanted to know if I knew if they were still seeing each other. I messaged her back and told her that they indeed were still seeing each other.
I now know everything about him. Where he lives, where he works, his wife's name and I've seen pictures of their kids. My WW has told me a lot more about their relationship now that I have discovered as much as I have. She's told me how he lights up her soul. How he's quiet and conservative, which I'm not. How the kids think he's wonderful and have expressed interest in him being their step father... It's too much for me.
She tells me his marriage has been in turmoil for years and they have been in MC. She is waiting to see what happens with his marriage. She wants to be with him. She sees him as her future.
I've become very active in my church again and have spoken with my religious leader on numerous occasions. I'm trying to find strength there. I'm just so tired.
BD Oct 2014 S Dec 2014 D filed Feb 20, 2015 D on hold as money ran out for attorneys and the marital home's future is up in the air
