I am just catching up to sitch. Limbo land stinks, but the good news is your W still seems uncertain, so you have been given gift of time to work on yourself. Even though your BD happened a while ago, you have only been DBing for a month. I have been on here 4 months and it was only about a month ago that I really got a grip on my emotions. Still have days here and there that are bad, but much, much less frequent than at the beginning. It will get better. GAL and detaching helps with that tons. Not only does it take your mind off W/M, it is a self esteem booster as well.
If you are having those kinds of thoughts, there is no shame in going to doctor and talking to them about antidepressants. I know many on here did that. IC can help as well. I almost opted for drugs, but GAL, exercise, and IC eventually helped me with my depression and mood.
You can do it!!
Last edited by BT13; 08/06/1507:39 PM.
Me: 42 H: 40 M: 12 H moved out - 8/2015 I filed - 8/2015