So like I said before hopes not gotten up. Today she let me know she was leaving this weekend to see the OM. I maintained my calm and asked her not to go, at the very least stay and get get herself ready to move out first. Once she moves out then she should go do whatever.
She got negative again, bringing up old stuff. I accepted my responsibility for those things that I know I did wrong I still remained calm.
At the end she asked me how could i be so calm. I told her I realized the way I used to act wasn't good for me or anybody and I'm working on that for me. I got off the phone first.
I did end up crying some after I got off the phone when I took a walk around the parking lot at work. I'm trying to figure out my next move. I'm trying to think what can I do this weekend that isn't sitting around moping about her running away to another state. Lats thing I want to do is lie for her to the kids but I also know I shouldn't tell them either.
Do I just go dark now? She texted me a question about our son but I don't even have the energy to respond to her.
I want to pack her stuff into boxes and put it on the street but I know that isn't a great idea either and bad for the kids.
I've contacted 2 different lawyers about a consultation on Monday and right now have had 0 reply.. GREAT time to find another one.
