Falling Pianos: Wayward Wife & LRT (8)

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Journaling:
I missed a call from STBX and I decided to call her back. She proceeded to tell me how she is going to look at houses again today. I respond with, "Oh cool, good luck."

She then states that she doesn't have enough money for a down payment and complains about not having access to the joint accounts. She said that she thought I was a higher class of person than this and can't believe that I would change all of the passwords to the bank accounts. I remained calm and responded that it is really out of my hands and I'm sure the L's could work out something in the settlement, etc.

STBX complains about wearing out her welcome and running out of room for her and the kids at her parents house. I empathize briefly and then change the subject to the kids. I say hello to the kids and then wish her good luck today.

I am no longer in denial about the D. It is happening. I have accepted it as reality. I see brief glimpses of STBX being conflicted about it but then it just disappears. I find it odd that she still asks about my plans but I'm sure that's just misguided curiosity. I don't think asking her to lunch or talking to her on the phone about her day will change her motivations right now. She clearly doesn't want to be with me. And I don't want to settle and be with someone who disrespects me either. We are strangers to each other. My life is not over, far from it.