Photoka, I feel your pain. My H is still here too and it is hard, but at the same time it is probably better than living apart. I also sometimes get the sense that my H is trying to get me to file so he is not the bad guy, but other times I truly think he is trying to see way to stay M. I just try to DB my best and hope it is the later.
Hang in there!!
Me: 42 H: 40 M: 12 H moved out - 8/2015 I filed - 8/2015