have i been making mistakes too long

[tkdmme]

Thank you guys for the advise.

I went out last night for the first time in a while. I drank too much and feel guilty. I feel like im going crazy. I feel good one minute and feel awful the next. Are things ever going to get better? I hate myself for failing in my marriage. I feel like the kids are going to suffer because I let my family down. I cant move on. 16 years of marriage and a way of life and now its all over. This really [censored]. Im sure nobody wants to hear me complain but I have no one else to vent to. I wish there was some quick fix to either repair my marriage or to quit caring about it. It seems that my life is over.
Again im sorry but I am feeling down today. I cant seem to pick myself up. im at work but cant focus on my job. I have friends here but I think I am wearing them out with my somber attitude. Unless you have been through this, I guess its hard to relate. I remember thinking before all of this happened that I would be fine if she ever left but obviously I was wrong.
Im losing my mind.