Soon in April of 2014 I took to the internet to find a quick solution and found this site. I read both MWD books with a highlighter. I did the GAL thing, I was already in a gym, joined the 55+ club, life drawing etc. I settled on the MLC forum where I read the stories that had a similar theme to my own. I read the ones that had an ending resolution from beginning to end, I’d read from sun up till sun down some days, they all started the same and went through the same stages. I watched the MCL forum play out in real time before my eyes. ILYBNILWY, I made changes but they were, “too late,” In fact it made her mad that I didn’t do it sooner Everything was my fault, the marriage of 33 years had nothing good about it, 33 years and nothing.
I found an old post by The Hearts Blessing and read about the six stages of MLC and I’ve seen the first three stages of them play out in front of me. 1. DENIAL-- the fear of getting older. I got to see the expensive face lasering, creams, short skirts, dark eye shadow etc., etc. For about 4 years now we both have been on replacement hormone therapy. Hers is estrogen and progesterone and mine is testosterone and DHEA. I don’t think that played a part but maybe it was a partial trigger. I wanted to do it when I turned 50 but she said it was too dangerous but when she turned 50 it seemed like a good idea. 2. ANGER-- Man I never heard such language come from a ladies mouth. WOW! I admit at that point I was able to fire back too. It was relentless I couldn’t say hello without being raked over the coals. 3. REPLAY--Wanting to move back to her old high school area to live. Talking about old high school boyfriends and what “nice guys” they were. Telling me she finally made it to the “cool kids” table at work. Yeah that’s what I thought too! This is an IT executive that I’m talking about, one of the smartest people you’ll meet. I guess this is the same for a middle aged guy when he gets a wig, buys a red convertible sports car and plays music too loud when girls cross the street. A little too old to be at the “club” if you know what I mean.
