BeClem, looks like you've been getting some good advice. Cali has kindly suggested some goals, but these truly need to be yours. And this all links back to knowing yourself and looking at what YOU truly want in life going fowards - with or without your W in the frame.
I'm looking forward to seeing your shift of focus - away from trying to control what your W is doing....which causes a desperate whirlygig effect as we have just seen - and onto that which you CAN control - YOU!!
Good luck my friend..
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We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus