You have gotten some really good advice. Now is the time for yku to stand up and be the man you always wanted to be. Time to get into the grown up world. Put away the video games, get yourself a job, become independent, GAL. Start with realistic goals and start moving towards them. You cannot change your past but you sure can make a better future for yourself.
Me 52 H 44 T9 M 5 BD 12/11 H split 8/12 OW moved in 12/12 OW gone for good 6/14 We get closer again 9/14 SD 13 Me 4 Grown
Accept what is...let go of what was and have faith in what will be.