Lost, alone, and in pain

[HurtHus]

Oh and Sandi, My intentions for getting papers prepared is to show my W that I am no longer the doormat I have always been. I have always been the one to do house work, care for the kids, attend all school functions, and do everything to keep the household functioning aside from laundry and paying bills. I have spent 17 years treatintg her like a queen; packing her lunch in the morning, getting fresh flowers at least once a week, ensuring that our kids have everything they need and providing for this family like nobody else.

I'm not sure what drove her to where she is. I know I am not blameless, but until she is ready to come clean and tell me what the underlying issues are (she just says she isn't attracted to me anymore) I can't do anything aside from focus on me.