Pink, sounds like you did a great job on a (censored) day. Time to continue moving forward and continue to let yourself heal and grow. One day your H will wake up with many regrets. He clearly has not dealt with things in a healthy way.
Sending a big hug to you today.
Me: 42 H: 40 M: 12 H moved out - 8/2015 I filed - 8/2015