PigPen's Dropped Rope - WAW and Waiting (4)

[PigPen]

Thank you for your encouragement everyone. I think Cali or Matt (miss him) said that all that's going to change is how we file our taxes if we do D.

I'm actually ok with this, what is she going to do - move out, live somewhere else and not talk to me any more? I'm already well in the process of recovering from that. Nothing about my day to day is going to change.

Lately I have been able to look at my own situation, my M, my W, and my life all from a very mature perspective and know that everything will be more than well in due time. I couldn't see that a month ago, but can see it now.

I also knew this was coming, and know my W fairly well at this point. She's wanted to be out of our M for a long time and unfortunately Right after our miscarriage she told me that she didn't think I was the man for her nor was this the marriage for her. I gave her plenty of reasons to feel the way that she does. I'm sorry for that, for both of us.

DB has been an amazing learning experience for me and I'm by no means done doing my work here - regardless of her actions.

Tomorrow I celebrate 200 days of sobriety and feel amazing. Even though I wake up every morning without my W, I also wake up every morning with my own self respect. That's a blessing.