The 'snapping at my wife" that I refer to was flipping her off and telling her 'f you.' (reading your stuff vanilla makes me just want to quit and leave her alone). it was over in a second, but reading all these abuse things makes me just want to give in and pray for her to be happy.
to be clear, i had never said or done that to her before. after reading up i personally believe it was the adderall crash that aggravated it. but i obviously still did it. and now she's gone.
thinking back she did block stand in my way a lot in the past as i tried to leave rooms, despite me asking her to move, etc. most of the time it was to try and leave the space because the argument / fight was ramping up and i just wanted to escape it.
i don't know what to do anymore.
it's that same feeling - how can this be happening, etc. ugh. i need to do some work.
thanks all.
M36,W34 T18 years M9 years D3,D6 W "doesn't want to be married anymore"6/14/15 ILYBNILWY6/2015 W moves to parents house 6/30/15 W removes wedding band 7/3/15 My ring back on 8/8/15 Served 8/11/2015.
