I've been trying so hard to stay busy. I never really tried it before but it actually helps. I think I went 20 minutes without thinking about her! That's a record for me.
I've been lifting weights, cleaning the garage, my truck, my diet has changed completely. I ate very, very bad. Half a gallon of chocolate milk a night and like 3-4 Watchamacalits (candy bars) and countless sodas. Since this happened I've had 2 sodas, no candy bars or chocolate milk, LOADS of water (which I never drank before) and plenty of stuff to keep my mind busy, but no video games!
It's still very hard. She hasn't contacted me in over 24hrs and after the last time we talked, I acted so desperate and didn't give her space. I'm going dark for now.
