Hi Pink. You did great I can't imagine how hard it was for you but let's not dwell on the past. H now has to put on his big boy pants and live his life
Going back to work is a good idea. Fill your mind with other things and concentrate on your plans for your new life.
I hope the D gives you a sense of detachment and you are able to get off H's roller coaster It will take a while for you to gather your thoughts and time will help you decide if you stand or not.
I hope you continue to post and tell us how you become more like the Pink of old and tell us more stories from your past
Take extra care of yourself and those boys. It's a new chapter in the life of Pink and it's going to be a great one