Hi all, I am finally divorced. Just left court and it is final. It does not feel good and not too bad. It's a mix of past, present and future.
Life goes on and I need to gather the pieces and start a new life. Financially I am not in a bad spot, emotionally I need to put everything in order.
I am sad, very and extremely sad. At the end of our court meeting, XH tried to talk to me, I just looked at him and left. Walked by myself to the parking lot. If it is DB or not I did not care. I just did not want any contact today.
This emptiness is cruel, but I better be patient with myself and take one day at a time and let it heal as I go.
I plan in filling my life with lots of stuff, now that it is almost all resolved, I won't need to put so much time and energy on papers and organizing for the D.
At the parking lot, H was crying beside his car. I did not stop, I left because it is not my job anymore to make his life easier.
I did not stand in his way, and I won't ever. I will worry about myself and my children and let the universe take care after whatever will happen next.
I am at work now, reality does not forgive and I need to keep working.
Thank you my DB friends for all the support and loving advices you gave me during this past year. Without it I would not be in a state of mind I am today. Life moves on, and I am moving with it. Just hope better day are in the horizon, because I have been tested for too long. It is time to start smiling.
I did breath and was looking really good for my D. I actually just realized that I was wearing the same theme colors I did wear when we got married on civil court back in Brasil. Funny coincidence, I did not think about it until now.
H saw my Sicilian blood running through my veins today and he better stay away because I really want to cut his head off right now.
It's a new me and I am no longer his wife. I won't be a bitch to him because we have our kids and we need to be good parents, but it's "finito" the whole crying baby BS he has been pulling to get my sympathy.
So girls, I did breath, almost like a dragon, but I did breath and everything worked well. At the end H is broken and I will keep my life. Not too bad for first time divorcee.
Hi Pink. You did great I can't imagine how hard it was for you but let's not dwell on the past. H now has to put on his big boy pants and live his life
Going back to work is a good idea. Fill your mind with other things and concentrate on your plans for your new life.
I hope the D gives you a sense of detachment and you are able to get off H's roller coaster It will take a while for you to gather your thoughts and time will help you decide if you stand or not.
I hope you continue to post and tell us how you become more like the Pink of old and tell us more stories from your past
Take extra care of yourself and those boys. It's a new chapter in the life of Pink and it's going to be a great one
