Hi all, I am finally divorced. Just left court and it is final. It does not feel good and not too bad. It's a mix of past, present and future.
Life goes on and I need to gather the pieces and start a new life. Financially I am not in a bad spot, emotionally I need to put everything in order.
I am sad, very and extremely sad. At the end of our court meeting, XH tried to talk to me, I just looked at him and left. Walked by myself to the parking lot. If it is DB or not I did not care. I just did not want any contact today.
This emptiness is cruel, but I better be patient with myself and take one day at a time and let it heal as I go.
I plan in filling my life with lots of stuff, now that it is almost all resolved, I won't need to put so much time and energy on papers and organizing for the D.
At the parking lot, H was crying beside his car. I did not stop, I left because it is not my job anymore to make his life easier.
I did not stand in his way, and I won't ever. I will worry about myself and my children and let the universe take care after whatever will happen next.
I am at work now, reality does not forgive and I need to keep working.
Thank you my DB friends for all the support and loving advices you gave me during this past year. Without it I would not be in a state of mind I am today. Life moves on, and I am moving with it. Just hope better day are in the horizon, because I have been tested for too long. It is time to start smiling.
