Wow. Its hard for me to even begin to appreciate all that you have been through based on those paragraphs above, and I can imagine it was difficult to get that all out here in the open on this public stage.
I'm way too new here to have any real meaningful advice for you on what the best road to take is, but I just want to say that IMO you are doing exactly the right things for you and your kids right now and turning this crap situation into something you can hopefully look back on some day and see how strong it has made you.
You've been at this a bit longer than me, but I think you and I are at similar points right now on our DB path. Still love and care for our spouses, still open to a M 2.0 that could be great, but also see that their journey right now is one for them and them alone. So we accept and begin to move forward, making ourselves and our own lives the best we can, focusing on that which we can actually control.
It's hard to stand by and watch loved ones seemingly implode while simultaneously letting go, but it is the true path to healing.
Me:36 W:30 M:2.75 T:7 BD: 4/2015 ILYBNILWY: 5/2015 W Moved Out: 5/2015 W filed for D: 7/2015