I have a meeting with my attorney on Thursday. I have tried to be patient but I think my patience has run out. I think at this point a need a clean break mainly for me. I think if I know its done I can move on but with it lurking there for some reason I can't get past it.
I know I will be ok at this point which I didn't know a few months ago so everyone here has got me to this point. Going forward it will be hard but I have basically been on my own for 7 months now and I have realized that H is not the person I want in my life with the way he is.
I have come to realize the trust that was broken with his lies I don't think I can get back because I don't think I will ever trust him like I did and I really need that with whoever I will be with or maybe I will be by myself and I am ok with that too. I have lots of family and friends that my S and I hang out with every weekend.
Wish me luck and thanks to everyone who has supported me and made me realize that I needed to find my own life. I have and will continue to do so.
Maybe down the road we can patch things up maybe not only time will tell.
