Do you ever get those days where you just want to stop DB'ing on your M and start to file for D because you think it's a shortcut to something inevitable? I'm having one of those today...
Over the past few days, a week even, I've been really buoyed by some of the posts and feel that I'm being strong, have GAL (few days in the week where there's nothing to do) am as dark as possible (only breaking cover to discuss joint financials) yet it feels like it's all a waste of time as there are so many family members (all of them) and the person inside my head telling me to "give it up, start the D process and move on, your marriage was all wrong and should have been ended a long time ago".
I do see DB'ing as very important as it's enable me to move from being a needy wreck to someone in control, feeling confident and understanding that there is a future but I am troubled by the thoughts that are surfacing about the way forward is to formally drop the rope as what's been said by loved ones makes a lot of sense.
I guess it's just one of those down days on the rollercoaster...?
- Nobody has ever learnt anything important from happiness and success; problems make us grow - Consult your plan, not your feelings - If you haven't set goals, how can you expect to achieve anything?
