Intro Story

[biast]

I dropped the bomb yesterday in therapy that I was considering not reconciling.
At that point I felt like I was over it.
Later that day my wife dropped by our house after I was off work with her overnight bag and wanted to spend the night with me.
She brought up that she thought it was interesting that I was more reluctant now. She also told me it evoked no feeling in her.
She wasn't happy nor sad.
This kind of hurt my feelings but I'm not sure that it was true because she did pack her bags and come home for the night.
It was a good interaction until we brought up our homework assignment for counseling. It's called an empathetic letter.
We need to write down how we feel in the others perspective.

We were talking briefly about the assignment when the subject of the affair came up.
She asked me how I was feeling about it and I told her what it felt like from my point of view to be the victim of infidelity.
I told her that it was the cruel.
I told her that it was evil. I told her that I also felt sorry for her that she had to live with for the rest of her life knowing what she did to me.
I told her that she would have to take it to her grave.
I then mentioned briefly the mentality of a cheater (rebellious, cold, selfish). She was really trying to get me to come out with it all.
Obviously not the best conversation (although it was very calm) but I felt like it had to be said.
At the end I hugged her and I told her that I appreciated her trying to work through all of this with me.
After we went to bed.
Restarting the clock now.
I will not call or text her unless I hear from her.