When is kindness enough?

[Ripe]

The end of my marriage is coming.
I have never felt so sad in my life.
Not even when in June 2014 my W announced her intention of divorcing me.
When I started DB’ing I had something to cling to.
I was working on me, improving myself with an aim in mind: to get my marriage back.
A different and improved marriage, but still my marriage.

In June we started reconciling.
I had done it. A second chance was being given to me. My efforts had paid off.
I knew this was only the start, a new beginning, that things would not be easy, but my W and I were doing a conscious effort and started reconnecting.
My W even decided to stay abroad with me one more year.

But know it is obvious I failed.
And I don’t know what to do from here.