MLC Funhouse continues

[BrightFuture]

My gut tells me I did have a MLC, but was a wallower.

I think I went through this too, about 6 years ago, 3 years prior to H’s BD.
And this:

I believe I had a crisis prior to my H.

My H has told me things I said, including that I wanted a divorce, and I honestly don't remember these things. He went as far as telling his parents. How could I not remember this?? It's crazy.

I actually remember telling H that wanted a D, but I vaguely remember other details about that time.

Then I started realizing that my life was pretty good. I had a faithful caring husband, not perfect, but a good guy. So I started coming back, but it was too late.

I had similar experience. Except my H didn’t intend to stand for me. He was going along with me telling him that I wanted a D. He even started looking into getting a separate CC for business. So, I cannot say that he was going to stand for our M. Actually, when he delivered his ILYBNILWY speech, he said that it would be better if we were separated at that time (of my crisis.)

The only difference is that I realized pretty quickly what I was doing and asked H to give us another chance, to which he agreed. Maybe now he is punishing me for what he felt, for the hurt I caused him back then. And I think I paid 10-fold for that.