XW's fog lifting, wants to work on fixing us

[gogofo]

On the 23rd I stayed the night and on the 24th we spent the evening together and I stayed until her mom was about to get home and then left. No one knows we may be working on our R again.

Had a week long vacation last week with the boys. Went and visited family and it was tons of fun. XW was abroad at a friend's wedding.

She sent me some pictures and snapchats on my phone. A couple good night messages. One night she was with her family reminiscing about our wedding and she told me that she couldn't tell them about our D. They still think we are married.

I picked her up from the airport on the way home and dropped her off at her car. We spent the latter part of last night telling each other about our trips and sharing our photos with each other.

We talked about possibly going away to a concert in a couple of weeks.

I took a book that she had bought about a couple that got remarried after D. I am about 3/5 through it. I assume we will talk about it once finished.

I asked her to dinner at my house on Thursday. She did not respond to my text. Found out I still get butterflies and wonder why she hasn't sent a message back.

I am trying to hold my horses and not overwhelm her this time. I love hard and am trying to not to be smothering. I will continue to read the book tonight. I am also having dinner with a friend tonight so that will be good. I am also trying to decide if I want to go camping with the boys this weekend.

I am thinking this time I am going to be straight forward with my feelings and let them out there more freely. This is a step I need to take. If it makes me feel uncomfortable I should probably do it.