Surviving the rollercoaster by getting off two.

[Karma12]

Hi V,

Lovely to hear from you as always.

I have decided to try dating again because I feel like my head is in the right place. I don't take dating too seriously and I don't jump in with both feet. I am just dipping my toe in the water and seeing how it goes. I honestly would be quite happy to find someone to see a couple times a week. I don't think I would want to live with someone again. I do enjoy having my own space too.

I have often had male friends through life but usually I haven't felt romantic towards them so it's never left the friend zone. It is a good way I'm told to evolve into a relationship.

My advice to you my dear V is to discover what it is that YOU want in life and what YOU enjoy and move towards that. For example I like to exercise so I do. I enjoy travel so I have made a personal goal to go on two trips a year. I'm always looking at what I may want to do next. Your personality is so brilliant V you will easily attract someone when the time is right. This has been a very difficult year for you. Get your hair done, buy a new outfit, start getting healthy to be the best you for you. Someone else will just be the icing then to the already lovely vanilla cake.

I do think my ex is in replay. I know he still has a road to go in his MLC. He is no longer angry, or depressed and he is reconnecting some with his family. I know I have to protect myself and think of myself too. It's easy to get pulled in when someone is sending mixed signals and you see more of the person you used to know. I need to remain at a safe distance. If things are meant to be they will be. If I meet someone else and end up moving on that that is the road my life is meant to go. I will always remain part of my SD life. I feel most for her. She deserves so much more from her Dad. These last few years of her childhood are important years. She needs a parent that is focused on her and not behaving like an adolescent.

I have the word strength tattooed on my ankle with a flower beside it. I got this tattoo when we were splitting up. I am strong and will be drawing on that strength to continue to stay back and move forward. I will update as I go.

Hugs,

Karma