Yesterday was odd, she called while I was still doign Army duty complaining about some of her medical condition stuff. I was distant which she sensed and asked me if she shouldn't call me about that anymore I told her I don't know I don't want her to be suffering. So we talked for a little bit about that. Once I got home I took a little nap and then took the kids to see the new mission impossible movie. Thigns with her were back to "normal-ish" like post me leaving. I'm still following the rules and still trying to focus on myself and the kids.
This morning she made some comment about "why aren't you crying anymore?" and "dont change just because I wanted you to change" I just replied "I didn't"
I think she is just super confused why I didn't come home raising hell or being upset on the phone...etc
Right now I'm living my life like I want to, find me again before becoming her caregiver.
